This April will be a special one. It will mark 10 years that I have been following Christ.
I truly can’t believe this anniversary has come so soon. That fateful day feels like just yesterday.
Many of my anniversary posts are just a recounting of my testimony, and while those are great, this time, I’d like to do something a little different.
Because while God opened my eyes to His glory and Lordship on April 25, 2010, I am not the same person I was in 2010, 2011, 2012, and so forth.
God gave me some kind of spirit of discernment early on in my walk (I never like prosperity gospel preachers and, back then, I really couldn’t explain why, but something [the Holy Spirit] told me to be weary of their teaching), but that same gift and zeal for sound doctrine was abused for a few years as I bullied brothers and sisters in the faith for not holding to the doctrines ol’ important me thought were most important.
I thought I was strong and able to “handle difficulty”, but I didn’t realize just how powerless I was until I was thrown into a barrage crazy trials some years ago. And yet, during some of the darkest times of my life (as a believer), I realized I wasn’t nearly as hopeless as I had been during an earlier trial in my life (one that happened before I was truly saved).
And those trials humbled me. I began to realize some of those Christians I disagreed with understood the love of God better than my own “clique” did. I began to realize it is okay to disagree on certain things. We are a family. Family will never agree on everything, but that doesn’t change the fact that we are all brothers and sisters.
10 years is quite a vantage point.
From here, I can look back at things I asked of God and say “I am so thankful You didn’t answer my prayers the way I wanted You to”.
It’s encouraging. And humbling.
My pastor recently said “I am not where I want to be, but thank God I am not who I used to be” and I couldn’t agree.
10 years ago, I thought I’d be this well learned theologian. I thought I’d written a book, be some kind of teacher, etc.
But 10 years ago, I was also too zealous for John Calvin and wasn’t zealous enough for Jesus Christ.
Am I still reformed? You bet.
Do I still think TULIP is the most accurate interpretation of scripture? Yup.
Am I still Cessationist? Well…I don’t really know. I’m beginning to lean Continuist, but I don’t really understand how the gifts work for the modern day church.
And that’s okay to say I don’t have all of the answers.
I do have one answer though: the Word of God is living and active, inerrant, inspired by the Holy Spirit, and is the foundation for all of our lives.
As long as it doesn’t contradict something clearly laid out in scripture, we can have some friendly debates on things, but let’s remember that our unity is more important to God than getting to say we won an argument.
“Nobody has ever been argued into the Kingdom, but many people have been loved there.” – Chad Moore
Grace & Peace Saints,